Journal

“If someone comes to you with body dysmorphia, they will leave with narcissism.” A masochist of mine said it as a joke, but they meant it, and since then it has stayed with me.

I bet empathy can burn hundreds of calories, just like playing chess. Empathy can be depleted. One could do SM like a machine, with prearranged gestures to preserve their energies and disappear behind repetition. I don't do that. One should not approach this line of work without a great deal of empathy. Listening to every breath and word before, during, and after a session. But it can take its toll. A decade ago, a sadist friend of mine stressed that I am a magnet for sadomas

You, chained up, strung out, screaming... Hot. Mastering pain and consent takes years. You wouldn’t dare speak like that if you’d ever been pushed the wrong way.

You don’t need to tell me your name. You won’t be asked to explain yourself. And if we passed on the street, no one would suspect what I do or what we shared behind closed doors. #Discretion #BDSM

Desire can be blinding. Horniness will lead you into bdsm scenarios, but often with someone whose only concern is their own release.